Bawang Merah, Bawang Putih

I joined a piano lesson in my art class on May 2017 (at least that's what I remember). Lalaland is the reason why, if you're asking. I love Lalaland more than any musical movie I've watched in my whole life. Learning it late, made me regret the fact that my mother used applied me in ballet lesson, piano lesson, etc. Anything to see if I'm capable of doing something, but I was young that time, and I didn't care about anything that there's no progress. Things change the way I see the future since I met this dearest teacher of mine, Ellen Renata. I called her Ci Ellen. She looked so cold-hearted at first, and her face was grumpy but I tried to think the good in her. It wasn't easy to be close and opened up, instead it was hard-time kind of bond. I learned pretty slow when I was told to play my right and left hand at the same time and I'm the type of person who could do it if I practice often but the problem is that I don't even have a piano. I hate dissapointing her but at the same time she could've understand my position. So I decide to practice in my cousin's house, because he doesn't really often play his own piano. I would practice 3-4 hours, once or twice in a week. It's a commitment.

As months went by, I would try to joke around and be annoying with her. Then, we finally bonded pretty well. I'm always trying, always try to keep up being better and learn faster so that the both of us wouldn't waste any time. Even thought we're close now, I still don't know much about her but I find that she's very lovely (a little bit stubborn but it's useful).

Tuesday, the 20th of February which is four days ago, I was invited to her show. It’s her last project called Bawang Merah Bawang Putih.

At first, I’m not sure what it’s about. I thought it was going to be only her playing the piano on the spotlight but instead, there was a band and also a play. The singers sang beautifully and they were so energetic, the band was great but I had to say, my eyes were only focused straight on the way my teacher played the piano. It’s like, it’s more than just a piano, it’s way more than just a note and it’s indescribeable. It’s the moment when I just saw her from the front row and a feelings inside of me saying “I wanna be like her, she’s so perfect”. She played it so passionately and I couln’t be more touched that I even cried a little. Besides that, I couldnt even be more thankful to have her as a teacher and a friend.

The Greatest.

If watching this movie for 4 time is a wrong then I don't wanna be right. The director, Michael Gracey, makes everything that we've imagined is real. It's all real and magic is real. I felt like I needed to prepare for this fantasy ride when the movie was starting. As "A Million Dream" is playing, I cried. It was so beautiful, and how Charity love him with all of her heart, running away together. I cried harder when they were dancing on the roof underneath the moonbeams. It was so dreamy that I cried harder, I can't help it. The fact that they were born from different world, different circumstances. But all she does is have faith in him, believe in him and he let her to be part of the journey, reaching his dream. The love was so strong, as if the world was theirs.

"you may be right, you may be wrong but say that you'll
bring me along, to the world you see"

The part where PT Barnum held up all the posters of wanting unique people got me shook. It's something that people wouldn't do, it's a rare thing. See, this era has been a pretty wreck, people start doing body shaming, finding it hard to accept one another, saying bad things to other people who has flaws like it's not a big deal. The part that everyone forgetting is that, the fact that God made them that way. They deserve love and if someone look better physically, it doesn't mean the other look less beautiful. So, I cried harder as "This Is Me" was playing. Love just gotta fight the hate, and love will win.

"There's nothing I'm not worthy of"

Rewrite the stars. It's an unrequited love. Like, it's forbidden and it would be hopeless if they tried to break down everything that tried to hold and stop them from loving each other. When they were holding hands outside, other people would look as if they're so disgusted by Anne. Everyone would think "how and why" they would be together because of the fact that it's such from a different world they're in. But who can stop them if they were meant to be each other's destiny?