A Night to Remember

Everytime i woke up in the morning for school, didn't had enough sleep yet, I kept on pushing myself "let's move, i won't feel the time anyway" and that is exactly what i did. Everyday. What exites me through the day is that I'm going to have something to look forward to in the evening. It's my sister's birthday and we're gonna celebrate it by watching "Konser Indonesia Bermimpi" Glenn Fredly at The Pallas, SCBD. I was already so tired from school, but i'm just trying to keep up, and also what disaster is that I haven't prepare what I'm going to wear which makes me gotta try like 3-5 outfits. I'm not the only one ok, don't judge.

It was rainy which cause the traffic of course, my mom's friends were there, my sister brought her bestfriend, Kerin whom I'm pretty close to. And yeah it was crowded already, on the lines. Finally get to enter and the place is beautiful, felt like in a church but there's a bar, and lots and lots of chandeliers. Felt like in a movie. But sadly, the air was full of smoke. I hate it. We gotta wait like 2 hours and I was starving, I even gotta hold my pee because it was too crowded to get out from the crowd. When he came, my energy was fulfilled and I let out my voice singing as everyone does. He makes me energetic, hype and brought good vibes for sure!

Long story short. I've been seeing him for 3 times and now, the 4th, is where he sang the song that I love the most. "Kisah Sedih Tak Berujung". It's like it saying "we could've but we didn't" or "we were maybe, never a must". Like you thought, this will be the last, but it didn't. You thought it could be "forever" but turns out to be "a while" so you just gotta accept it and keep it as a memory you'll cherish for the rest of your lives. or until someone new or time can do the healing. This song is the deepest for me, every word in the lyrics says it all. I almost cried as I sang along with my heart and soul. 

 

There just gotta be sax. Makes your hip move,
and dance to the groove.

I'm happy seeing you happy and dance like
no one cares, especially spending this moment
with your best friend. Live life, big sis.

There is no sister like you. There's sisters who would go to their bestfriend first to ask for advice, shut themselves and keep everything to themselves, especially personal things when they got a boyfriend. you told me all chapters in your life, the sweet and sour. I'm happy I get to hear it, I'm happy being there for you when you need me. I am such a cold hearted b that you're so patient keeping up with me. No one can bring the best version of myself but you, no one can make me laugh with tears when I'm at my worst or my darkest side. What's better is that you help me change to be better, help me to forgive, help me to accept, to start to look the goods inside of every people's soul and do some random act of kindness. Thanks for being here, watching me grow. You are more than just a writer. You are the most lovable caring person I've ever met in my life and I'm grateful having you as a sister. Thanks for always being my wing, and also being the Elsa to my Anna.

6th November, Indiana, 1983

I am fangirling right now. I had been so annoying since i finish the last episode and i just couldn't talked about it with my friends, even my sister because they haven't finish it and it'll spoil everything. Just now my sister was like "omg shut up u can blab about it when i finish it okay" and I'm like "So who am i supposed to talk about it with" "Talk to the wall!" she replied. Guess I'm just gonna pour it all here. So Stranger Things Season 2 got everyone so hype. I literally finished it in like a day on the 4th of November since it's everywhere like on my Youtube timeline, and on Snapchat's Discovery and I can't help it anymore and once i watch it, i just can't stop. I'll starve, I'll hold my pee, anything to finish it as soon as i possibly can because it's pulling me and really brings out the curiosity in me. When i was watching it, I even hurt my eyes for sleeping less, which brings out the headache but I just couldn't stop.

My first reaction was full of shock, just shock how babies they were in Season 1 and they just go from the age of 13 to 17 in a year. That is just fast. Also, i know i'm not the only one who would think that Max is such an annoying brat like no, even I can't accept her in the party. Secondly it got me so excited how Will Byer is not in the Upside Down anymore and the fact that's he's gonna play more in the scene.

Got me all shook when he had another episode on his mind, where he sees himself in the Upside Down and the Shadow Monster possesses his body. Thirdly, it kills my heart, my soul that Hopper just wouldn't let Eleven come out from the hidden cabin in the woods, where she doens't have a life, literally just spend the days accompanied by the TV WHERE SHE JUST WANTS TO BE WITH MIKE BECAUSE BEING WITH HIM JUST MAKES HER HAPPY AND SAFE AND THEY ARE JUST IN LOVE AND THE WHOLE UNIVERSE IS SUPPORTING IT.

okay i'm chill now. It screams my heart out, the fact that she just can see Mike through her mind, not in real life and Hopper just doubt her for coming out because the more people see her, the more danger she's in.

Moving on, it kinda bugs me when Eleven meet her long-lost sister, 008? Whose name i forgot. Like, it looks like she's enjoying spending time with her because they both have powers and experienced the same past.hat i don't like is that how 008, the fact that all she thinks is just about to take revenge, revenge and revenge to kill  people who hurt her in the past. (u could've just let it go bitch, move on). Then Eleven change her mind, decided to go back "home" to go to her friends, where she can save their lives. Got me like "YAZ BITCH GO SEE MIKE".

For years, for decades, the moment, the scenes out of all scenes that i have been waiting for my whole life is when they see each other in the cabin, so full of affection and pain and happiness like all at once, you can tell so much by the look on their face. I EVEN REMEMBERED THE LINE. OKAY I'M SORRY BUT THIS JUST HAPPEN TO GET ME SO HYPE I HAVEN'T FEEL THIS OBSESSED.

like can you actually believe that Mike's first love is this girl whom he had been spending time with for just a few days, teaching her words, pretend that he's sick so he can just spend time with her, and believe in himself that he could've save her when she dissapeared and since that day when she left her, he spent 353 nights to reach her, making sure that she was okay like IS THIS A JOKE WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME I AM DEAD. Lmao the guy i like can't even call me. i was bursting in tears when i saw this scene, i have no words, i can't understand how strong their love is. I'm done.

AND ALSO THE PART WHERE MIKE SAID "i can't lose you again" "you won't lose me" "Promise?" "Promise". Then she head off to close the gate, saving the world and just like Mike's promise on the last ep of season 1. When it's all over, they went to SnowBall together AND IT WAS SO SATISFYING TO SEE THEM TOGETHER MY HAPPY TEARS ARE COMING OUT AND THERE WAS "Every Breath You Take" music on the background. They kiss. And as i finish that, i played it like 3 or 4 more times because i can't believe that is actually done like what am i supposed to do now i am lifeless.

PS I REALIZED THAT THIS DAY, 7TH NOVEMBER, 34 YEARS AGO IS THE DAY WHERE THE FIRST TIME MIKE AND ELEVEN MET SO YEAH LET'S CELEBRATE TO THAT. (anyway sorry for me being overreacting but this is just how i felt, i am this hype)