All Said and Done.

I have never write this before. But it’s been quite a while since he crossed my mind.
I wanna ask how you’ve been doing, did you meet any new friends at college, what do you expect and how do you picture your whole life after highschool ends but what was it instead. How’s your new lover, what does she doesn’t have that i do.
I keep telling myself that we won’t happen again, as much as I want us to be the way we were, I always doubt it. No reasons. I just do.
I miss my friend, the reason I wait on our bench next to the school plants and trees where we talk about people passing by. But the bench is not the only thing that made me thought of you.
I thought about you when I search Jazz musicians in the 40 or 60s for making my study playlist because I know you know some. I thought about you when I caught some cool guys in their 20s wearing their old-fashioned outfit because I know you’re a fan of it. I thought of you when I sat in the car and  stare dramatically at the city lights of Jakarta slowly fades away while I’m on my way home.
I thought of you when I breathe and a soft wind pass me by as I look up at the sky, looking less blue. I thought about you when I look at old movie posters because you love movies back then when it’s grain and dramatic, way more than how it is now. I thought of you at the most unexpected times and I still don't know why.
Heard from some of your friends that you want to catch up on unsaid feelings, but i'd rather keep this safe distance between us.